to marshmallow fluff.

i think i have a problem... i went through an entire jar by myself in 2 days, and all of it i consumed straight from the jar with a fork. then i wanted more. even though i gave myself a stomach ache.


i could go for some fluff right now.

well the owner of the shop and a co-worker, (they rotate with me doing the receptionist thing) decided whilst i was away on vacation that i would work friday afternoon 4hours and sundays 6hours...and thats it. creative way to force me into doing more tattooing? creative way to get me to go away? who knows! its all so exciting...
so we shall see if i can dig myself out of depressed coma every day and go to work to do tattoos/drawings for tattoos. even though i don't HAVE to be there.

i'm not good at doing stuff i don't absolutely HAVE to do.
(including eating: even though andrew, susan, mom, grandma, my stomach, are campaigning otherwise)

when i say i could get into san jose state it doesn't mean that is what i want to do. i'm just feeling like it might be smart to have a plan b, c, d. - in case what i want does not want me

so i'm in this slump, right? i'm sure none of you have noticed, EL OH ELz... anyway i feel like shit and i'm all sure no one wants me around or likes me, waaa. maybe i'm the one who should move away...San Jose state will still take me, i'm sure. i'm also marginally bothered at how androgynous i look, (as in i don't look traditionally feminine: butchy hair, tattoos everywhere, almost no figure to speak of) but i did it to myself mostly, so i can't really complain.

oh k, bitchy paige got her say, now it's 'optimistic' paige: i like my new red and black dye that Tyler at Bang Salon did especially for the fashion show tommorow...the shaved-to-the-skin look i'm not as sure about, but that too is esp. for the show. so if anyone has seen SLC punk, do i look like heroin bob or what?!
tonight and tommorow i need to finish drawing this anime picture and go thru the rest of my shit to figure out what i want to sell at the show, then wrap them all in clear cellophane, blah, blah, blah.

in other news: i'm SOOOOOOOO cold! this is NOT cool guys, not cool. i know i need to grow out my hair on the sides a bit, but still, C.O.L.D...